12/1: slept in, started laundry, boy-child driving me crazy, watched Bronco game, Hubby’s grandmother (who has stopped chemo treatments for her ovarian cancer) has taken a slight turn for the worse and his grandfather (who is in the early stages of dementia/Alzheimers) is not taking it well at all which had Hubby rather upset, cheered Hubby up by getting him to watch Rock of Ages movie which had us singing, laughing, groaning and wondering why no one was wearing spandex. (You know if Cruise couldn’t pull off Lestat, what made anyone think he could do a rock star?). I’m thankful I was able to cheer up Hubby.
12/2: exercise, stitch, laundry, work for a couple of hours then go back for my regular shift, finished the ornament. Tired. I’m thankful for the opportunity to make a little extra money.
12/3: Slept badly, dreamed a phoenix was trying to get out of my body. Yeah the hot flashes have suddenly gotten worse. Missed the dark moon last night. Did a reading to find out how to make up for it (Opportunity to do something loving, be still and then do!), so meditated, a sincere effort to let go of some of my anger and worry. Noumenia ritual. Finished laundry. Found a cross-stitch chart for a friend. Glared at the snow and cold temps. Work. Hubby brought home a tree from his travels during the day. Set it in the stand after dinner.
12 /4: Slept badly again. Think I may need to increase my nightly dose of cohosh. Very cold and snowy. Don’t want to go anywhere but I went into work early again. Picked up the boychild, ate and went back to work. Between the cold, my child, the extra hours I’ve been putting in and my long to do list, I didn’t want to go in… Grocery store before home. Very, very tired. Exta dose cohosh. Redesigned my son’s Solstice ornament. Hope to start on it tomorrow night.
12/5: made cheese cake sugar cookie bars for work’s holiday luncheon tomorrow. Picked out floss and fabric for son’s ornament. Put away laundry. Candle lit for Zeus. Work. Dinner and then craft night. Tuck the boy-child in then over to a friend’s to watch the first 2 episodes of Downton Abby.
12/6: My parents’ wedding anniversary. Work by 9 to decorate. Christmas luncheon at 11-ish. (Belly ache from seaweed wrap I think, though the cheesecake sugar cookie bars were good.) Home to pack for Denver. Picked up boychild and drove to Denver. Had a long talk, again, with my son over expectations while at his grandmother’s. So far so good. Hubby left to go deer hunting. Hope to find him some gifts this weekend.
12/7: Rough early morning…my FIL’s alarm went off at 5 so I had a heck of a time falling back to sleep. My son never went back to sleep. We went shopping after breakfast, first stop was Cabela’s. Got some gifts for my husband and got to see Santa while we were there. That was great luck as that was next on our list of things to do. Had lunch and then got my son a desperately needed hair cut. Stopped quickly at Home Depot and Hobby Lobby where I got some craft bits. Dropped them off at the house and then I went to try to find shoes for work and Santa gifts. No luck on the gifts. I did find some jeans for the boy though. I drove my MIL’s vehicle which I really liked…a 2010 explorer. Dinner was Chubby’s. Yum but damn that chili was hot tonight! Really overate food today. Need to get up early enough tomorrow to get some sort of workout in. The time at my MILs has gone a LOT better than I expected. No arguments or even comments over regular bedtime, food, food restrictions, etc. My son has also behaved very well. I’m very happy with how this weekend has gone. I got the most wonderful private message, from a wonderful lady and blog stalker. Thank you so much D, for the message you made my day, my week and maybe even my month. I look forward to growing our friendship!
This month of being thankful was a lesson in being appreciative of not only the big things but also the small things. Same days it was hard to find anything at all when I was in a haze of negativity, other days it was so easy. I have a lot of reasons to be thankful. I’m a very lucky girl. I have the best life partner a girl could ask for…he’s been with me since I was 18, through the good times and bad; he’s always been supportive and loving. I have a healthy, intelligent child who I love much more than it seems; I love him much more than I am exasperated by him and that is a lot. I have a home filled with all sorts of good things. I have an extended family that cares about me and a job I actually enjoy. I’m so lucky and need to remember that much more often than I do.
Today I’m thankful for finally getting to go into the new crafty store in town. I enjoyed chatting with the owner and plan on seeing how she does with framing one of my larger cross-stitching pieces.
I’m thankful for being able to find the gift I wanted to get for my work party in town (as opposed to having to go down the hill for it). I’m thankful for being close to finishing the cross-stitch ornament for the same party.
I’m thankful for the blank note cards I found so that I can make more holiday cards.
I’m thankful for you, the readers of this blog, for listening and often responding to my mental meanderings.
I’ve been having a real difficult time convincing myself to do something “regular” to honor the Kindreds on a daily basis. So lately this has been more a journal of my existence than spiritual practices and for that I apologize. It is where I’m at right now. I’m hoping by the Solstice things will change…maybe this in between time is meant for just being and appreciating in an informal way. I don’t know. Even my evening prayers have been spotty though I do (this sounds a bit hokey) love bursts where I imagine the love I feel shooting from my heart chakrah out to the Kindreds. <sigh> not enough, never enough…
11/24: rough day: coming to terms with some of the changes to my body due to the start of “cronehood” hasn’t been pretty and today it came to a head; dishwasher died…before Thanksgiving…the only thing I hate more than washing dishes by hand would be mopping; my son has 2 pairs of jeans with no holes and I’ve get to find a practical and easy way to fix them that will actually last; and the Broncos loss due to stupid mistakes just exacerbates everything else (which is stupid of me but there you go). Up late, emotional shit, pastry for breakfast, started laundry, was on my own for the afternoon so I did some crafts, new recipe for dinner, Bronco game and more emotional shit.
11/25: Slept very poorly, finished up yesterday’s ornaments, laundry, read a little, listened to music, tried to find things to lighten my mood, got my sister’s birthday gift together, work, come home to find Hubby looking at dishwashers online. That was quick. I figured he would hold out until at least Friday. Hopefully the local store will have the machine we want before Thursday.
11/26: Well couldn’t get the machine that we wanted unless we wait 3 weeks or so. Picked out a less expensive one but will have to pick it up and install it ourselves since delivery is also 3 or so weeks out. Hopefully this machine is more durable and operates better than the last 2-3. Exercised. Make the requested cole slaw to go with Hubby’s fried chicken for dinner tonight. Post office to main my sister’s gift then work. Came home to Hubby making fried chicken…which ended up taking a lot longer than we both expected but it sure was good. Talked about Thursday’s menu…sorely tempted to make 2 pies as I really want a pecan pie…but I’m the only one. Read.
11/27: slept in. Grocery store. Vacuumed. Gave away my son’s play kitchen. I tried to sell it so that I could put money in his savings account but no one wanted to buy it. Hubby got grumpy and told me to just get rid of it. A woman at work has a young daughter so I gave it to her. She probably would have paid me something for it but I wasn’t sure if she could actually afford it. Worked. Came home to Hubby installing the dishwasher. By the time he was done, I had lost the desire to make pies. Maybe in the morning.
11/28: Hubby woke me up at 8 so that we could start the pies. Pie dough recipe should have been make last night…dough is too tender. Pecan pie first…overflowed in the oven, filling tastes like carmel. Luckily there was foil in the bottom so clean up was easy. Hubby even replaced the foil…which was good because the apple cranberry crumb pie also overflowed. FMW. Though the recipe for the second by was lousy… good idea, lousy execution. Next up was roasting garlic for the roasted garlic dip. Then made up the stuffing and stuffed the turkey. We cook the turkey for the first part of the time in the microwave. It is quicker and the meat stays moister this way. Next was the relish tray. Once it was time to transfer the turkey to the oven, we started the garlic mashed potatoes and the cranberry sauce. The pecan pie was the best I’ve ever had. So yummy I had two pieces…my son will be furious when he notices… Lit a beeswax tealight for Papa Zeus…sending my love and my thanks…
11/29: Breakfast was the 2nd pie which was disappointingly bland…when it boiled over it must have taken all the flavor with it. Put away laundry. Stitched…got to get the ornament done ASAP. Ironed then hand-sewed a patch onto a pair of the boy-child’s jeans; prepped a second pair. Watched Ironman 3 with the family. So the dishwasher that I was a bit worried about, it appears to have been a great choice. Honor to Hermes and Hephaistos for lucky purchase and the great machinery, long may it run trouble free. Water for the Ancestors.
11/30: Wrote blog on Perkunas. Found myself saying “I honor ____” as I showered today, naming the deities who touch my life so very often. Stitching. Picked up a gift for the holiday party at work. Talked with a new shop owner in town who may do my framing for me. BA Board meeting where I threw out an idea that I need to explore now and did the meeting minutes. Sent in a submission to the Muse devotional. Water for the Ancestors.
As the month winds down, I’m finding it harder and harder to not repeat myself.
Today I’m thankful for the new dishwasher as it seems we made the perfect choice for our needs. I thank Hermes and Hephaistos for the lucky choice and for the excellent workmanship. May it operate well for a long time.
I’m thankful for figuring out ways to fix the holes in my son’s jeans. Don’t know how well my hand-sewn patches will hold but he’ll be able to get more use out of them with these patches. May we find the money (and the jeans) to replace them soon.
I’m thankful that my husband chose not to work today, as he needs the down time. Little bit worried about him as our money issues have him in a real funk. All this work with no money coming in is hard. Wish that check would arrive soon!
I’m thankful for making progress on the gift ornament. I have the bottom “line” of the design to do and it will be finished.
I’m thankful for the Kindreds and their presence in my life (that was actually my first thought this morning).
I’m thankful that my husband likes to cook AND he helps with clean up. It makes cooking holiday meals a fun, stress-less time. I love how different my household is on holidays compared to my parents’ where at some point they always end up yelling at each other…and your never quite sure what/when you will accidentally piss off the “head” of the house. Mom always had great food on the table but there was always a certain amount of stress. I love my dad but he isn’t the easiest man… My household holidays are filled with good food and laughter. If something doesn’t work out right, “not a big deal”. I miss spending time with extended family, but I’m so thankful to be at home.
Although…we did use the 1936 china…that despite repeated warnings to be careful, my son chipped a piece. I wasn’t angry but I was disappointed. I’m thankful that it is only chipped. It would be nice if I could replace it…
Haven’t had pies yet. Can’t wait to try my pecan pie. First time I’ve made one and it over flowed. I’m thankful that there was foil in the bottom of the oven. I’m hoping if I reduce the temperature it won’t over flow next time.
I’m thankful for the new dishwasher. Not crazy about the set up of the baskets but I’m glad to have it ’cause we went through a LOT of dishes today.
Today I’m thankful for the areas where my son and I have similar intrests. Yesterday we cuddled as we watched a couple of episodes of Avengers. I miss the days when I had someone who liked to watch tv/movies with me…so it is nice when my son behaves well enough that he is able to watch with me.
Talking with my sister helped put a few things in perspective for me today.
Today I’m thankful for even having a dishwasher, washer, dryer, oven, refrigerator, microwave, tv, computers, cell phone, ereader, etc. Yep today I’m thankful for electronics and appliances. Where her situation (and ex-husband) have forced her to live, she has no dish washer and has to go the laundromat for clean clothes. Her microwave which she got at the beginning of her marriage and which has outlasted the marriage is on its last legs. My situation is such that I can’t help her out. So the perspective shift was a good one for me and yet kicks up all those not to pleasant emotions on her behalf…