A bad precedence for the day
A bad dream in the morning hours before I awake sets a bad tone for the day. No matter how hard I try, can’t seem to shake it. The dream was too close to real life. I dreamed that my OSO (yeah the one I still lust after 5 years apart) told me that his wife says he can play with anyone…but me. Head/desk annnnnd repeat. I started to write him an email about it…several times. I always ended up deleting it instead of sending it. You see, I miss him. Yet we have found that being “just friends” is too hard on both of us so we have slowly moved out of contact. He’s always there if I have a question but the friendliest things now seems awkward and whiney. Ain’t I a piece of work.
To make the day even better, my son is at the stage where everything has become a control issue with him. Food, toys, clothes, play time, bed time, bath time, etc. Even putting up Halloween decorations, normally something I love to do, has become a trial. I find myself yelling, cussing and trying to resist the temptation to spank him for the smallest thing waaaaaay more than I would like. Annnnnd Hubby left for a week of elk hunting. I’d like to go spend some time at a lower elevation where it is warmer but I can’t reasonable go until my son starts behaving better. It would be like a reward. A reward that he SO does not deserve.
So there you have my day in a nutshell. The only thing making it tolerable so far…the cinnamon rolls that Hubby made me before he left. Yum.
